26 weeks

hi. ok, that last post was rather dramatic, but totally valid. i'm feeling better. i had a mini break to st. louis this weekend for Aero's 1st birthday party. much needed weekend away.

we spent the morning/afternoon in Tower Grove Park, splashed in the fountain, cupcakes, presents and a darth vader helmet that kept getting passed from kid to kid. it was really awesome, regardless of the heat and humidity. i was really really excited to catch up with Angie, even though there was lots happening and not a ton of catch-up time, it was enough to snap me back into shape.


duder was not happy to be in the water. next to the water was cool though.




seriously, amazing kid. so awesome.


otherwise, i just did normal type stuff. it was a relatively short weekend, you know? but stopped at my regular places and caught up with friends, bought some shoes and cute things i didn't need but it made me feel better, antiquing with my mom, like regular. it was really nice catching up with folks and them being all excited for me. pretty awesome. didn't eat a ton of delicious things, it was just too hot and humid to do so. way worse than chicago. unbearable. you couldn't breath outside, even after the sun went down it was still 85 degrees and same percentage in humidity. pretty brutal.

good to get away. good to give it a few days. i was really losing it, and super spazzed out and stressed and things were just too much. feeling better now. re-focusing and making agendas.

as far as being pregnant, obvious emotional instabilities happening, but for good reason. serious reasons and all. my meltdowns have been more intense and more frequent. totally sucks. im ready to be finished with this. im still feeling good though, besides that. physically and all. no issues or anything. gaining more weight by the day. i felt miserable in st. louis with the temperatures and all, but im back to ok. turned the ac on here today and feeling just fine.

i think im back to updating regularly again. im feeling like im back to regular except that i have more time in everyday or something, if that's possible. and it totally is because this is the last trimester. knitting like crazy though. exciting. got some larger sizes on etsy, as previously mentioned. i'm working on a few new pieces of furniture for onesies as well. a new line soon, i think.

filip's working on dinner and im starved. i gotta go poke around the kitchen.

ending 25 weeks

hi all. just a quick update. there have been lots of things i could have been blogging about but the past few weeks have been rather tough and i've lacked the motivation to do so. i'll probably thoroughly update next week, maybe.

here comes the third trimester and i've never felt so alone and screwed over as i'm feeling right now. trying to stay up, finally immersed in reading everything ina may gaskin has published, and although its helping here and there, things are just horrible right now. my midwife has even been showing concerns, can't hide or fake anything at all nowadays. i'm pretty much in this by myself at this point, seriously.

aside from that, i finally managed to list a few larger sizes of the chair onesies on my etsy for the bigger kids. please, buy them.

i'll be ok though, im pretty sure.